I just took a pregnancy test. I couldn't resist. Despite how much I knew it had to be negative, all the way to work this morning, and so often throughout the day, I just kept turning back to it... that what if? After all, what if?
Well, not a big surprise, but it was negative. It's day 32. I should have waited.
And yet.... I also know that I'll take another one in the morning, being that first thing in the morning is the best time to test, right?
Why can't I just stop? Why does it always comes back?
I understand all too well. The justification that the test was bad, or the hormone levels that day were low but the next day they will be high enough to register. I have been so focused on other aspects of my life (ie adoption or foster care) that I haven't paid attention to AF in quite some time. I hope you can find a similar distraction. Otherwise every month is just heartbreak replayed over and over again. It can be nearly unbearable. Thsnk goodness for supportive husbands.
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