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I came out here to write about words. Words, words, words... I love words. I really do. Words is the photo theme of the week. But I'm just not up for it right now, even though I love words and like the photos I took. But you know, it was an exhausting week, for numerous reasons - and I feel like I'm a million years old. I miss my husband. He and I both had business trips this week. I got back yesterday - him not till late tomorrow. I want to write about words. I want to write about happy things. You all know how blessed and grateful I am for the sweet things in my life. But I'm so tired from walking around like a normal person, trying to cover up this searing pain. My heart just aches for things it can never have. It won't stop. My body feels old and achy and I just don't know how to stop hurting. I can't even believe my heart can keep hurting this bad. I think I'll just go to bed, instead. I wish Ar were here.