Dare I dream?

Yesterday, on CD 17, I had some bleeding. It was definitely more than spotting, but still light - like a normal CD 1 for me.  CD 17.... could it be implantation bleeding? Since I haven't tracked anything other than the day AF shows up since my last treatment cycle, I don't know for sure when or if I ovulated. Implantation bleeding would be a miracle, truly. An amazing miracle. Dare I dream?

Honestly, it's hard, even now, even for me, to not hope in light of something so different like this. I woke up full of hope for the first time in a long time. But the bleeding is still going today - very lightly - so I imagine that implantation bleeding wouldn't continue to go on. I wouldn't really know though. Oh, but I so wish and hope that it's implantation.

If it's not, it could maybe be ovulation bleeding - though that's never happened before. 

If it's not either of those, and this is the most likely answer I suppose, it could just be a fluky cycle that is re-setting itself. That has happened before, but not early that I can ever remember.

Anyhow, I don't know what to think. If this is my new CD 1, then that means I'll probably end up with AF while we're in Honduras - which I've otherwise been gladly expecting to avoid.  But who knows.

So... that's the unexpected happening that I'm trying not to think about.  Sigh.

Oh, but there is a nice thing to report: thanks to my darling Ar's working his cute buns off during this busy season, we were able to send a big - final! - payment to my RE this week. Yay on us for that!!!